"I grasped two things: I wasn’t as happy as I could be, and my life wasn’t going to change unless I made it change." — Gretchen Rubin, The Happiness Project In my sessions the main thing we've been working on is controlling the thoughts that send me spiraling out of control with anxiety or depression. It's … Continue reading Automatic Thoughts
It's been over a week since my last post. Though I have a bunch of ideas, even a few rough drafts floating around on my phone, I just haven't felt like writing all that much. That's depression for ya. It sucks having something I want to do, to have thoughts I'm really excited to share, … Continue reading Slow Goings and a Sorta Blog Schedule
And sometimes I have kept my feelings to myself, because I could find no language to describe them in. — Jane Austen, from Sense and Sensibility I wish I could let this coursing anxiety leak out of me. Slowly. An extra orifice that drips fear like a fresh nosebleed or that little dribble of drool … Continue reading Scribbles, a doodle, and a playlist.
Generalized anxiety disorder. The words sound weird inside my head when I try to apply them to myself. It's like putting on someone else's Hello My Name Is... sticker while the adhesive is half rubbed off and threatening to detach from my shirt. Like it doesn't really belong to me and if I attempt to … Continue reading Diagnosis
"The poison leaves bit by bit, not all at once. Be patient. You are healing." — Yasmin Mogahed I didn't expect it to be a struggle every. single. time. I had to attend therapy, but maybe I should have guessed. I don't like going to the doctor, any doctor for any reason. Appointments like that … Continue reading I don’t wanna go.
Haha…just kidding, guys. It’s been closer to a year or more. And that's my awkward way of introducing you to the little blog I'm going to be writing about said mental breakdown, what caused it, and how I'm striving to get well again. Those opening lyrics from “I Was Scared & I’m Sorry” echo around … Continue reading “I’ve been obviously on the verge of a mental breakdown this week.”
"Therapy can be an excellent way to develop some tools to deal with your emotions and explore options for improving these issues and getting life back on track." It's always at this point of the introduction email that I started to cry. To 'get life back on track' I'd have to admit my life had … Continue reading “Getting back on track”